Free Your Soul

A journey to finding me

Maybe I cant figure out what i want to do because i dont care. When i vision my future all i see is this peaceful atmosphere. With scratchy quilts and soft flannels. Open fires and hot cups of coffee. Its silly and ridiculous that the only dream i have for myself sounds like an indie movie, but thats what i want. i dont care what job i have because it doesnt matter. Money doesnt matter. And thats why its so hard to try and base my entire life around it.

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New & Improved

Before I jump in, here’s  a little update about what’s going on.

When I first started this blog I wanted to stay “anonymous” but now, I don’t care. So, Hi. I’m Victoria. Nice to meet you. I also had the intentions of posting on here daily and obviously, that hasn’t happened…..so…sorry. To help me stay on track, I’ve created a sort of schedule to go by. This is really just a rough draft because I’m indecisive and change my mind on a daily basis, but here it is:

Mundane Mondays– Because Monday’s suck, I’ll try and brighten them up. I’m not really sure what this day’s posts will be about, the title just seemed catchy. So I guess we’ll see what happens next Monday!

Tid-bit Tuesdays– I love sharing little bits of knowledge with people, so that’s what is going to happen. Whether it be health, or DIYs, or even little tutorials.

What I Ate Wednesdays– Mostly because I love food, and I love these videos/posts. So why not? I’ll take you through my meals of the day. I don’t know. Maybe it’ll be interesting.

Tune-in Thursdays– This is kind of my “whatever” day where I can just talk about whatever my heart desires. Fill you in on my life, what’s going on, that kind of stuff. ya feel?

Follow me Fridays– This one I’m not positive about, and I need your input. I enjoy watching vlogs so I thought I could add in a day where I took y’all around with me, and Fridays are my days off so I thought it’d be a good day to do it. But would you guys be interested in that? Let me know!

Saturday Storytime– This. This one is my favorite. I love writing and telling stories. It’s why I started this blog. So I thought, why not set aside a day to do just that? I thought it’d be fun to give y’all a writing prompt too and we can all share stories together!

Sunday Funday– Because duh.

So tell me what you think, give me some feedback. If there are days you don’t like at all, seriously, tell me. It’s all for you guy, that’s why I’m here!

For the rest of the week I’ll follow this schedule and see how it goes. That being said, welcome to the first Tid-Bit Tuesday! *cue the confetti*

A couple months ago I started a job that requires me to drive 45 min away and drive on a super busy road, so in order to make it on time I have to wake up so. freaking. early. And if you are anything like me, mornings are evil. So here’s some tid-bits to get you through the AM.

  1. Set your alarm an extra hour earlier. When you have to be up by 6, its truly heartbreaking to set an alarm at 5, I know. But trust me, it makes actually getting out of the bed on time so much easier.
  2. Set a tall glass of water by your bed the night before, and then drink it as soon as you wake up. Not only is the good for your digestive system, it also really wakes you up. Besides, you get super dehydrated through the night and your body will thank you.
  3. If your wear glasses, just put your glasses on. I know it sounds weird, but trust me. As soon as I can see clearly, I become more alert. Besides, have you ever tried to sleep with glasses on? Shits painful.
  4. Stretch. Scream. Whatever you gotta do to wake your body up. You’ve basically been in a coma for 8 hours so you gotta get your muscles moving. Its not cute, I look and sound like a baby dinosaur, but it works.
  5. Sit up. It’s so simple, but once you’re up, you’re up.
  6. Lastly, set a back up alarm for about 15 min after you meant to get up. Just in case.

 

And that’s all folks!

YEEE I’m excited for this new set up!

Again, give me some feed back, tell me what you think about the schedule, tell me some ways you wake up in the morning, talk to me! I’m lonely 😦

Ciao!

Breath in the View

Lately I’ve found myself grumbling all day about the crappy weather and the long hours I’ve been working. and it’s really just put me in a bad mood. So this evening I set off on a hike up one of the many mountains that surround me, and it made me realize something: I am an idiot.

The whole way up the trail, which wasn’t much of trail more like a pile of rocks, I was complaining about how foggy it was, how it was misting, how sticky I felt. But when I got to the top, I couldn’t remember why I was ever upset.

I mean, look at this view.

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Even in the middle of all the crappy weather, it’s still such an amazing view.

Kinda of like our lives. Even when we’re going through crap, and it feels like the rain is never going to end, it’s still a beautiful existence. I can complain about my work hours until I’m blue in the face but at the end of the day, I’m so blessed to have a job at all. We often forget to count our blessings, but it’s something we should make an effort to remember. It’s easy to get caught up in the negativity and forget about all the good in our lives.

Take some time out of your day to just stand outside. Soak in all the beauty and simplicity. Breath in the serenity. And don’t forget how blessed you are.

What’s your number?

Today, we’re going to talk about weight.

*Gulp* buckle up for this one.

As a young women in today’s society, weight has been something I’ve always struggled with. I was never a “chubby” child (this doesn’t include my infant years, because, to put it nicely, I had baby boobs) but being as I’m pretty tall and always have been, my weight growing up was evenly dispersed for the most part. With that being said, I’ve always been “thicker” in the booty area. I’ve always had wide hips. I’ve always had jiggly thighs. That’s just the way it is. Yet, for as long as I can remember, I’ve hated my body. Simply because it isn’t body they put in magazines. And that’s heartbreaking. I wish I could back in time and tell that little girl that there are so many other things to concern herself with, more important things that actually matter.

I guess some people are just born with body image issues, and I guess I’m one of them. I can’t completely blame society, even though that would be easier. Although, the media certainly doesn’t help. My biggest wish this year is that Photoshop becomes obsolete. Now I don’t mean filters and adjusting saturation, etc. I mean literally changing the way someone’s body looks. I find it completely disrespectfully to the models and the general population, and, quite frankly, just stupid. I want to see magazines using women (and men) of all shapes and sizes. I want to see people with stretch marks and cellulite and rolls and muscles and bones. Au Natural. And I want to see them so happy and content with their bodies. Because that’s the way it should be. While I am an advocate for good health, fitness isn’t a one size fits all kinda deal. It has taken me way too long to realize this.

I’ve come to a put in my life where I’m just tired, so tired, of trying to “diet” and skipping meals for no reason at all. I’ve spent too long hating my body, and so have you. When you look in the mirror, don’t look for someone else. We need to stop worrying about the number on the scale, stop measuring ourselves, stop obsessing about what size our clothes are and focus on how we feel in them. Your perfect body isn’t based on how everyone else looks, it’s based on how YOU feel. Radiant confidence and good vibes, and you’ll look drop dead no matter what.

The numbers don’t matter, your happiness does.

Besides, food is fucking delicious.

Say yes. And also no.

I’m an adventurer. In theory. The idea of exploring caves and hiking through the woods and setting off on random road trips and doing crazy spontaneous things sounds fantastic to me. But I’m also a realist. I’m fully aware that things could go terrible wrong and end up horrifically embarrassing, and that’s what stops me every time. The anxiety of meeting new people and putting myself out there cripples me and I shy away. So, I’m trying this new thing where I just say yes.

Most of the time I’ll make plans, just to come up with some lame excuse to bail and stay home to watch Netflix. ( Netflix is a real life addiction. Seriously) I want to try new things and meet new people. So why can’t I just do it? Why is it so hard?

We miss out so many experiences because we’re afraid. Afraid of failure. Afraid of not having enough money. Afraid of judgement from other people. But things have a way working themselves out and for the better.

The solution: just say yes.

Because you never really know what, or who, you’ll end up falling in love with.

On the same note, another problem I seem to have is saying “no” to people. I’m a people pleaser at heart and I hate disappointing those around me. But I always end up pleasing the wrong people. I get so focused on putting all of my energy into pleasing one person, that I forget about all these other people, and a lot of the times those “other people” are my family members. I don’t know why I put the people I care about on the back burner, it must be some self-esteem thing, to need to impress random people that don’t really matter. Whatever it is, it should probably stop.

The solution: just say no

So I challenge you, random people of the Internet to say yes to new things, to new foods, to new people, and to occasionally say no, to take time for yourself and the ones closest to you.

And drugs, always say no to drugs, kids.

The Journey Begins

Here we go..

Today, June 9, 2014, marks exactly two years since I graduated high school; and it got me thinking, what have I done? The answer is: nothing.

I’ve done nothing notable in the last two years except fail out of community college ( stop laughing at me). This summer it has really hit me how much I’m not doing because all of my classmates have gone off on independent studies in these beautiful countries and I’m still living with my parents.

It’s time for a change. A big one.

I’m setting off on a journey, to find myself, to find what I want, what I believe in,and who I want to be. It is so much easier to sit around a fantasize about the life you want than to go off and live it. But I’m tired of living “easy”.

So I’m doing it. And I’m bringing the internet with me. Even if no one ever reads this, which is very likely, I’m doing it for me. I want to document what I learn, how I feel, all the adventures I go on.

So. here we go…